PERMANENT TEARS

Mama told me, "Son, just keep your faith strong"

I've been fighting demons, they won't leave me alone

Now it's cold trying to sleep with this iron by my side

Lost too many real ones, made my heart divide

Money come and go, but the pain still stay

I'm done bled for this life, still pray every day

Standing in the dark, tryna find that flame

Every time I rise, I'm reminded of the pain

I learned to cry alone, stayed at a necklace 'cause I'ma die alone

Sent a couple kites to the troopers that's doing time alone

When the hood hopping, adoptions are trying to find a home

'Cause early on, I knew where I belonged, I know my partner wrong

'Long as he ain't told him, we could fix it

Yo' mama like my mama, bitch, we siblings

Left me at my lowest, hate that she ain't see the vision

Judge you off your D's, but I appreciate intentions

When it get risky, we risk it

It get ugly, just visit

'Fore he died, he hit my line, I seen his call, shoulda missed it

From getting expelled to suspended, kept disappointing my mama

Wait 'til the point we finally popped, ain't gotta ask me for nada

Mama told me, "Son, just keep your faith strong"

I've been fighting demons, they won't leave me alone

Now it's cold trying to sleep with this iron by my side

Lost too many real ones, made my heart divide

Keep my faith in the Most High, these niggas playing both sides

They feel like my success wouldn't occur without cosigns

Aladdin paying full, I just needed three cosigners

If you surpass 30 in these streets, you're an old timer

When niggas thinking Cali, it's more than khakis and lowest riders

Think about little Gracie and the Raiders, boss man

Can't go out like retarded, I'm a target, I'm toting fire

Noochie did a dub, his first conviction with no priors

He on the way, them tears is permanent for gangs, tatted on his face

"I like to utilize my rights," is all he had to say

We went from kicking in the neighbor's doors and cracking safes

To having issues clearing OTMs while at the bank

I got him righteous just for signing when that package came

We bleed the same, long as our reg the same

And CPS would make me have to change

Like, fuck these accolades, but made her proud 'fore Brenda passed away, yeah

Mama told me, "Son, just keep your faith strong"

I've been fighting demons, they won't leave me alone

Now it's cold trying to sleep with this iron by my side

Lost too many real ones, made my heart divide

Lord, I've been struggling in pain

I watched these tears away again

Lord, I've been holding my faith

I'm out here with my heart can't take